For those of you who missed me, I'm finally back on Deviant Art. Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh. I missed being here. I finally realize that i'm not really myself if I can't write some poems, or draw something I like. So for the first time in a very long time I am posting again. I hope those of you that watch me will continue to do so and hope I can get some new deviants to watch as well. I started with some poems and will post some art in the next few days. Hope you enjoy my work. Thank you so much for the support. Until next time.

Well the school i was working at decided to close down their Harlingen location. They pretty much gave us all the month of March as a going out of business special. Hee Hee. I took it pretty well considering my last class ended on February 07. I would just show up for work to oversee my students during their internship. Their official close day was March 31, so I've been relaxing and wasting away my savings. My money is starting to run low so it's time to get serious and start looking for a new job. Ah well, i had a much deserved vacation, which is a good thing. Now it's time to rebuild the savings account. Just thought I'd share that, i did get a chance to draw some new pics I'll upload them as soon as i add some color. Well until next time, Laters.

Sorry for the long slumber, but work has kept me busy along with woman chasing. Yeah well not really chasing but juggling work and dating. She's at work and I'm off, and I'm at work and she's off. Trying to find time to see each other at the wee hours of night is not a problem for an insomniac like me. She on the other hand is not an insomniac, so you see my dilemma. My classes had asked me to paint a ceiling tile for them since they didn't want to do it themselves. It gave me a chance to draw something while at work so I said why not. Every class that finishes the program paints a tile and adds the class picture so the new class that comes in can remember or ask about them. It is pretty fun for me to tell stories of the previous class and every new class wants to outdo the last classes tile. It's all in good fun and when old students come back to say hi they get to see what the new classes have come up with. Anyway sorry again for the long wait on new pieces I'll try not to take so long next time.

Well I've decided to think happy thoughts and do happy fun things. So far I keep singing the happy happy joy joy song in my head. It's pretty silly but it does the job, it puts a smile on my face and that is always a good start. I've gone out drinking with some friends not to the point of a drunken stuper but enough to have fun and let loose enough to where I can still drive home and not fall asleep and crash my car again. Yeah drinking into the we hours of the morning sobering up and then trying to drive home when you haven't slept in two days bad idea. Anyways feeling better, more like myself and getting better by the day. If you don't know what the happy happy joy joy song is I added this [link] to let you know what I'm singing in my head. Try it out and you'll see it will put a smile on your face. Anyways thanks for the support.

Well it seems I've lost the love of my life. She has decided she isn't ready to be in a relationship. Silly me I thought we were in one already. I don't have any regrets though I gave my heart completely and that's all I could do. I didn't hold back what I felt and told her I loved her and meant it with all of my heart. There isn't anything more I can do to change her mind so it does seem that nice guys finish last. If I had been a jerk would she have stayed? I don't know and now I can't seem to focus on anything. My mind is unbalanced and my emotions are shot. I need to start back down my path and watch closely at feet to make sure I don't trip on any rocks or boulders. I need to look clearly in front of me and watch out for potholes in the path I walk. I'm not saying that she was a rock or a pothole in my path I'm trying to say that after being with her my vision has blurred and I can't see my path clearly. My mind is unfocused and confused so I need to take time to focus my thoughts and clear my emotions. I wrote two poems to help me clear my head and focus my emotions. Sometimes it is easier to write what you feel down in order for you to see a path that you can walk through to clear the rough spots in your life. Well thanks for reading my story about my broken heart.